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That Night
it happened so fast
but not fast enough
the way you held me tight
and moved so rough
the night I begged you to stop
said I'd had enough
but you didn't
you didn't stop at once to think
about the pain you caused
still begging you to stop
you didn't-- you PAUSED
tears full of anger
as you tugged at my bra
eyes full of hate
yet full of pain
I'm looking at this dude
he couldn't possibly be the same
not the one from high school
when did he make this change?
his eyes are lookin' crazy
a little lost, somewhat deranged
moving fast, grinding slow
trying to find his pace
my legs unwillingly open
as he found the nice warm place
with both his hands, he pinned my wrists
with liquor on his breath
my lips he kissed
I tried to kick him,
but damn… I missed
Please.
I whisper over and over and over again
My words he ignores
as he continues his sin
"shhh", he says "be quiet, you're confused"
My "love" he continues to violate and abuse
Please.
He gets turned on, starts buckling at the knees.
Built up pleasure he relieves.
I'm gone.
I'm not here anymore.
I'm not lying on the bed
Tossed around like some whore
Those aren't my panties
the black ones on the floor
Hands are shaking
Heart pounding a little more
He's done
But for me, it will never end
He sweats from a nut well bust
Yet my sweats just begin
Nervous for no reason
around my old male friends
Asking Him above--
Is this payback for my sins?
Part of me will always hate you
The anger I tried to supress
FORGIVE AND FORGET--HOW CAN I?
THE SHAME'S BRANDED ACROSS MY CHEST
No!
What's the meaning of the word?
Doesn't really mean it
if her screams can't be heard?
MAKE IT UP? YOU TRIED TO
F*CK U, KEEP ON TRYING
that night you never heard me screaming
but you damn sure heard me crying.
Written by Ahsien